Saturday, June 22, 2013

Who I Am

Let's be honest for just a quick second. I am most the time pretty uncomfortable talking about myself. I don't mind so much if it's talking about things I have done or ways I have spent my time with friends or family. But when it comes to just straight up talking about who I am, my personal thoughts, emotions, habits.. That's not within my comfort zone. I often find myself, even in one on ones at work with my boss turning it back to them and asking them about themselves. It must be some kind of habit I've formed since most the time I don't even realize I am doing it. I'd like to say MY EYES HAVE BEEN OPENED or the WALLS ARE COMIN DOWN!  They're not all the way, but there is somethings I want to share. Mostly just for me and when I refer back to my blog really seeing who I was at this time in my life.

One deep personal thought that I continually have is how surprised/embarrassed I am when someone calls me pretty, or asks if I was a dancer or cheerleader in high school. I feel like cheerleaders have the stereotype to being "popular" so I find it funny since I had very little friends in high school and never really found my place or "click." I struggled with my weight while growing up and got made fun of continually for it and my freckles that cover my body. The acne that came into play in junior high didn't help at all.  A friend of Jordan's once told him he could do "much better" than me and it is something I will never forget. People say things and they don't know it lives on in someones world for the rest of their life.

I love to watch, read, draw, write about love. I enjoy laying on the sofa wrapped in a blanket watching a chick flick or one of my favorite TV shows. This has become something I do almost every night after work. It is my relaxation tactic. I am very much in a routine. Not necessarily is this something I am proud of. My M-F are generally as follows: Work, Home, Eat, TV, Bath, Bed.

I have become a HUGE bather. Our home has a nice bath tub and I just can't pass it up, almost every night seems like the perfect night to sit in warm bubbles and listen to my pandora Simple Plan station for a more fun feeling, if I am in need of a lot more relax time I put it on this Nature station I found. Makes me feel like I am in the spa.

So...  I watch a lot of TV, take a lot of bath's, play a LOT of candy crush, and post a lot of pictures to instagram.

I often think I need to be more YAWAF, however, for the most part I am very content with my life and all of it's uneventfulness :)

P.S. YAWAF = Young and Wild and Free.


Natasha said...

I really loved this-especially the second paragraph because it's hard to open up about insecurities. It really is sad how the mean words people stay can stick with us but I am not exaggerating at all when I say you are definitely one of those rare "classic beauty" type of people and I mean that 100%. xo

camille tinkham said...

I love reading your blog! I have always admired you ever since we had french class together with Mr. Jeffries! You are such a beautiful person inside and out!