I Think These Things EVERY Day

I love being pregnant. And feeling our little munchkin move around. But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't missing when all my clothes fit. I am so so so lucky for so many reasons. I am so lucky to get to carry our baby and I am so lucky to have a husband who makes me feel pretty every single day as my body goes through changes. I am sooo lucky! Every single day I am reminded by this when I get to spend time in his arms. I don't know if it's the last 9 years of getting to know him and growing into a life and family with him or if it's because he's seen me at my lowest, saddest times and lifted me out of them.. but he is just the most important person to me and I am sincerely grateful to have such a loving husband. We spend so much time talking and laughing and loving. Our dynamic is going to change a little bit sooner than we think but I know it will just bring us a whole new world of love and I count the seconds to see Jordan hold our little baby for the first time. I can hardly bare the emotions that come over me if I sit and think about it for too long. I am so thankful. I remember feeling sadness to see a woman with a round belly, just knowing I couldn't have that for myself. It hurts me to think I may bring this sadness to women out there who are trying to start families of their own. We just never know each others journeys. Every persons journeys are different. I just know there is hope for everyone. So to sum it up I guess .. I am just ranting about how thankful I am for my amazing supportive husband and our baby on the way.

Mental

I learned something yesterday. About Emotional Intelligence. I found it interesting.
You are not the emotion. People often say "I am sad." "I am mad."
But actually, we are not emotions. We are feeling emotions.
So instead of "I am sad." We should think, "I am feeling sadness."
This gives us the opportunity to recognize the emotion, but also to help distance ourselves from it.
I do not think this is something that can be done instantly.
However, I am going to start thinking this way to see if it can cause more mental clarity.

Goodbye.

Window / Weekend

No such thing as too many days like these.

(photo by me)

 This weekend was enjoyable. Just as they always are.

Today was a lot of fun. I went with a friend of mine and took some pictures for one of her friends sisters graduation pictures. I was more there for assistance but I took a few pictures myself. I like playing with photography. I'm not serious with it by any means but.. yeah.

Last night I went bowling with my siblings and cute little niece.

My nephew will be here any day. So excited for babies!

Honestly

This is all my days consist of. Well and work.

At least till glee is back, I have youtube. AND pitch perfect.

Last weekend I got a mani with the bff. Some ice cream with my hubby. Balloon release for our friends. Got my hair did by my momma. 

Weekends are the cherry on my sundae. (i actually don't really like cherries) We had sundae's at work yesterday. Seriously. Amazing. 

I LOVE ICE CREAM!

My days are not exciting. 

Sometimes I feel so... average. Maybe even less, maybe even like boring.

Yeah. Sometimes I feel so boring!

But I have a good heart (i like to think so). So I guess that counts for something.

AND I love ice cream.

She Doesn't Give A Damn

"She doesn't know who I am. And she doesn't give a damn about me..."

I remember liking this song in high school. Teenage Dirtbag.

Well I have been youtubing covers the last 5 days and have re-fallen in love.

It's got such a cute little story line.

"She rings my bell. I've got gym class in half an hour. I know how she rocks, in keds and tube socks. But she doesn't know who I am. And she doesn't give a damn about me."

Remember high school??

Or just school in general?

I can't wait till 4th period! 

Oh I'm super bored, I'm gonna write a note to my bff in 3 colors of gel pen.

Check yes or no.

Who am I gonna sit with on the bus?

Those days seem so long gone. I don't mind most days. But every once and awhile I catch myself missing photography, math, art, or just feeling that I was learning and growing each day.

Then I push those thoughts aside and watch Teen Mom.

In spirit of Throw Back Thursdays I wanted to share the 2 photo's of mine and Gina's St Geezy trip 4 years ago!

CHEERIO!

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A few little things I love:

When the sun is about to set and it hits the room this magical way.

Talented singers, how their music makes me feel.

When I catch myself and remember, everything is okay.

How a blank sheet of paper can be transformed into anything.

Going to sleep.

The warmth that is my husband. Literally.

Blankets.

Eating Taco Bell.

Rainy days.

Any day that my throat doesn't feel itchy. Darn colds going around.

Feeling hope and feeling alive and feeling loved.

I Feel Most Alive

I listen to my favorite song, sound all the way up, windows down, warm wind in my hair and sun on my cheeks, sippin an ice cold Diet Coke.

Balance

Life is a balancing act. I do not believe that any one person has it easy no matter how they make it seem. I once heard that the person you think to be the happiest person you know could possibly be on a suicide mission. When I heard that was the biggest wake up call to me. How can anyone treat anyone horribly when we don't know, ever really know, anyone's emotional struggles? How can we judge? How can I judge?

Life is a balancing act. At least for me. If ever I feel moments of anger, I try to take deep breaths. If ever I feel ounces of sadness, I try to count my blessings. If ever I feel overwhelmed, I try to close my eyes and resolve. I don't believe we can really control our emotions, we can just try our best to keep them balanced. Because, in my eyes, it is healthy to feel them all.

Deep down I always hope to be able to lift someone when they are secretly having emotional struggles of their own. Somehow help them. I am not sure what it is laziness or selfishness but most days I just don't try hard enough to reach out to others.  

 Oh and Jordan has had me listen to "Raindrops" about 5 times today. I think it's by Lifehouse? Well it's stuck in my head!

2013

Happy 2013!

NUTS right??

I uploaded a little video of how me and my bestest friend party. By ourselves, in and out of the car, crumping.

I haven't really made any resolutions for the year yet but I feel like I should. Actually, I've never really made resolutions, like ever.

Gina, I hope you don't mind me posting this :P

We made oreo truffles yesterday and they were SO yummy. I seriously ate like 10. I got roped into watching Vampire Diaries so that is what has been occupying most of my time these last 2 weeks. Don't you love getting hooked on a new show?

Simple.

You may not know my struggles. 

I may not know yours.

Sometimes - not always,

Days are like chores.

My heart gets weak when I allow it to.

Being strong is all I want to do.

Soft Water

I don't know how to post about anything that is super personal or sad. I know that I usually post about happy things or silly things. I have always struggled writing down my hard times, even in journals, unless it was in poetry. Poetry was my way of getting those thoughts out onto paper. I think I mostly struggle with this because I don't ever want to remember those times. I know that its ups and downs that define us as people, but I think that I already, mentally, hold onto hard times and so it's fun to go back and read my journals full of good memories. Also, whenever I write about upset times they seem silly looking back on them. I never feel any better after writing or reading these things.

So, I definitely respect those bloggers who are able to put it all out there. Maybe one day I'll be there. Just not quite yet.

Oh and do you remember when I said I wanted FRO YO so bad! Well we got some and it was yummy.

However, the yummiest thing I have ever eaten was this peppermint cheesecake pie thing from Village Inn. I'm going to get a whole one and eat it all for Christmas Eve!

Tonight is the Finale of The Voice! I wonder who will win.

Thoughts

Headband.

Pony tail.

"Adorable" shorts from my M & M jammies.

Striped sweater.

No socks.

Ear still hurts.

Watching my shows.

Printed pictures yesterday.

Waiting for my large print to come in the mail.

Hate waiting for stuff in the mail!

Ear still hurts.

Looking forward to decorating for the Holidays.

Even kinda looking forward to the snow.

Ear still hurts..

:(

 

That Annual Thing

So this girls birthday is just around the corner.

Tuesday to be exact.

 I never like to expect gifts.
So it's hard when someone asks "what do you want for your birthday"
Ya know what I mean?
However this year, one thing would be kinda cool..
Don't judge..
But I'd love the new Tswift album.
Just saying.

Our neighborhood is giving us free tickets to Wreck It Ralph
as long as we do a survey.
And I think that's pretty cool.

For Laughs

Hahahah..

Reminds me of how funny Jordan was after his wisdom teeth removal.

I just swept our porch, it had sooo much dirt and cob webs!
Gross!
Then me and Jordan cleaned our house.
I am loving this weekend.

Feelings of a Blonde

Sometimes I feel misunderstood.

Perhaps the color of my hair has people confused.

My friendliness can be mistaken as me being "air headed"

My nervous laugh can be mistaken as "ditsy"

My belief that there is good in everyone can be mistaken as "nieve"

  And my ability to act like nothing is wrong can be mistaken as nothing is wrong.

I am horrible with confrontation.

Always have been.

Lets just say I am working on it.

Constantly.

In the meantime, aren't we all just a little misunderstood?

Changing Leaves / Bread

Yesterday I got to check off my list one of the things I wanted to do this weekend!

Take pictures of the leaves changing colors

:)

Such a beautiful sight.

I also followed a Pinterest recipe and made some yummy banana bread.

I sure feel domesticated hahah.

Lazy Girl

So this is what I'm doing.

It has been a nice relaxing day.

I have been watching Giuliana and Bill.

They are pretty cute.

Last night Jordan and I went to play games with some people from his team at work.

Pirate dice was my favorite.

Because I won.

I can be a sore loser.

 

Cleanliness

I don't think there is anything better than a freshly cleaned house.

The smell is amazing.

The carpet looks fuller right after being vacuumed.

The sparkle of it all.

And the pride of your hard work.

(source) 

(source) 

The hubby is out at his friends watching football so this is how I decided to start my evening.

It's amazing.

Just enjoying a little me time.

And that means watching my backed up DVR and sipping down a Diet Coke.

I want to be more organized with our cleaning schedule.

There is SO much you have to keep up on other wise it gets so icky!

My biggest peeves=around the potty and dust on top of the trim.

I also want to get our pantry organized.

Any tips?

Currently loving:

Chris Young-Tomorrow

 

Love Love Love

I am feeling cheesy and full of love for all things!
Don't you love those days.
I love my hubs ubber a ton. He's sooo dang cuh-yooot.
 Today he said "I can't wait till it's fall and we go on walks together"
He loves the fall!

 My niece is turning 5!
In just like a week and a half.
I cannot believe it!
She makes me laugh so much.
She came over Saturday and we made forts.
I was watching videos when she was itty bitty, I will have to post sometime.
So cute.

I get so happy watching old video's of me and my bestest friend.

We're so funny!
We made a 7 minute video of us mocking one of our favorite shows at the time, THE HILLS.
She's a fellow blogger, you should check her out.
HERE. 

I cannot believe her baby girl just turned ONE!
Seems like just yesterday she was this tiny:

I love that Jordan and I got around to painting our trim in our bedroom over the weekend.
I am going to post a picture when we're all done.
It's going to be great!

I love that Papa Johns was doing 50% off deal and we took advantage!
YUM pizza. I actually like their breadsticks more than anything!
well not anything, I'm obviously exaggerating a bit ;)

I also am in love with spending time with my family!
Which I got a chance to do this weekend.
(and the fact that this is below the pizza does not mean anything, I was just so excited about that deal)
But in all seriousness, I feel very lucky.

LOVE MAH Joob.

LAST but not LEAST!

I am super in love with the fact that Joseph Gordon Levitt is releasing 2 films within the next few months.
Both look interesting.
Looper and Premium Rush.
I believe.
Should be good times.
Looper they did something weird to his face.
Hardly looks like him.

Phew, Monday's over.
Have a great week!